So I used to count calories...and I let it consume me! I didnt use it as a guide, I went way over board and became sick because of lack of calories. Ideally I should have been eating 1300-1500 to lose weight, but I was only consuming between 900-1000 most days. It wasnt enough to sustain me. I always felt weak, and I would go crazy with my workouts and eat hardly anything, then I would binge and feel so sick and not workout for several days. It was a roller coaster. It wasnt healthy and I was very much ruingin my self image even more. I was ruining the idea of working out and losing weight in a healthy way. Fast forward 9 months! I have gained 5 pounds. I have been trying so hard to get back in the game mentally, so I can do workouts that work for me and so I can start to lose weight in a very healthy way (even if it takes me another 9 months to reach my goal!)
Its been very hard to prepare myself to start this journey. I kept telling myself I was ready when I wasnt, I knew I wasnt because I wasnt ever motivated to work out. I tried to eat healthy, and most days I did, but I still made bad decisions. I know that if I make this lifestyle change it cant be "one good day for every 3 bad" I need to make the commitment to have all good days, and then have a few "cheat" items. Not to completely rid myself of the yummy junk food!
I think I am finally mentally in the place to start this journey again.
I dont have to kill myself to give 100%. All I have to do, is something everyday. I dont have to go to the gym for over an hour everyday to make this lifestyle. I can find fun things to do to get fit. I do what I can each day and I dont have to kick my own butt at the gym just to get fit. I just have to do something each day and I will meet my goal! If I do have the time and energy to get in a super long intense workout then awesome! I am so excited for this change! So watch out summer! I'll be looking good before you arrive!
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